Weigh In Results Time:
Weight Loss/Gain -2.8
Grand Total Loss 18.2
Total Lost since highest weight 28.2
How I am feeling physically: Physically I am feeling pretty good. I am working out some of the soreness, trying to plan my workouts a bit better, and re-learning a lot about fueling properly (I had a very low calorie day last week where I pretty much crashed-not pretty). I am not having any legit pain or ill side effects from the 2-a-day workouts so those will continue for the foreseeable future.
How I am feeling mentally: Mentally I am feeling ok. I had chat with a friend this week about how lonely this process can be. It takes up SO MUCH room in your head. With that said, generally week 6-7 is where I start to feel frustrated with the road ahead and the temptation to de-rail sets in. I am happy to report my mental state is rock solid this time. I am working on building new habits rather than thinking of this as a temporary part of my life. I wont always have to actively lose of course but I will always have to actively be careful- more careful than many. I am getting in the right head space for that.
Picture From The Week:
I hope everyone had a happy Easter!! We certainly did in our little corner of the world. It is amazing and an incredible blessing to watch a holiday through a child’s eyes. Truly. Our little guy had THE BEST time going through is loot and eating way too much chocolate.
As for me, I stayed almost chocolate free (had one small piece) AND stayed totally on plan. I did make a calorie heavy brunch for the crew but I balanced it out by drinking my greens for dinner. Win/Win.
It occurred to me over the weekend that I have really been looking at this weight loss thing ALL wrong. For weeks I have been in that zone of feeling disappointed in my size, feeling like nothing fit/looked right, etc. Really, just a pity party if I am being honest. Luckily, time hop reminded me that it was just a few Easter’s ago when I had a random health scare that led to weeks of tests on my heart etc. Luckily, I was fine but I can certainly tell you when I thought I wasn’t feeling “bummed” about needing to lose weight or look a certain way in clothes was the LAST thing on my mind.
So, as I ran yesterday I did so with an attitude of gratitude. Sure, I am not where I want to be BUT I am well, I am physically able to workout twice a day, I am financially able to get the things I need and a lot of what I want. I am happy. I have NO room to let the negativity come in and start to spread. The road will be long, very long. But I am ok and on the way to being even better. And I am thankful.
Speaking of workouts- yesterday’s solo run was a killer!! Holy hills Batman!
I spent the evening asking my husband- “Should my legs really hurt like this? Did I overdo it?” Hahahaha Seriously, it was something. Luckily, we had a quiet evening at home. I spent it diggning through my Easter loot (yes, yes I still get a basket) and watching “Sing” with the little.
Here is to hoping your holiday weekend was full of smiles!!
Weigh In Results Time:
Weight Loss/Gain -0.4
Grand Total Loss 15.4
Total Lost since highest weight 25.4
How I am feeling physically: Physically I am feeling pretty good. I feel sore, mostly in my legs, hips, and lower back. I have noticed that I am breathing with more ease, sleeping better, and have more energy- all of which are great. I also noticed that normal tasks like lifting the baby, carrying too much stuff at once, etc have become a bit easier. I am nowhere near (even in the neighborhood or city or state) of where I want/need to be but I can tell marked progress in four weeks. So that is inspiring me to press on.
How I am feeling mentally: I started to write “beaten down” here but that really isn’t true. I am having a pity party. I can identify that I am irrationally disappointed in this small loss. But let’s recap- First, mom was in town this week so we ate exactly zero meals at home. I made great choices and stayed on plan but it is not the same as eating at home. Next, every single week can’t be a huge loss. Sometimes our bodies need a minute to catch up. Lastly, after YEARS of “all the diets” I know my body tends to have a nice loss or two and then a small or 0 loss for a week befoe picking back up. This isnt news. So, what I have to do mentally is be fine with that, not let it de-rail me, and just relax into the process. This is too long of a road to be so tense and worked up. So here is to another week!
Picture From The Week:
(Full body for yall that have been asking. Ill try to do better here). 😉
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